Letting go.

Yesterday I went to the movies with a couple of friends and one of the previews was for the movie 2012. It's basically about the world coming to an end. In the preview you see the things that we all treasure or value on this earth get destroyed. Vatican City collapses, the Eiffel Tower is swept under a huge wave, even the U.S.S. John F. Kennedy is lost in the ending of the world. 

While I was sitting there, something hit me. Nothing in this world matters. Nothing. That thought has always been in my mind, but I guess I never really truly thought about it. Every single one of us clings to the things of this world, and for what purpose? When we die, it doesn't come with us. We don't get to cash it in and get something for it. It stays here on this earth. I know that I cling to the things of this world, and I have no clue why. I need to let it all go. The only thing I need to cling to is God. He is always there. He's my Rock. My Salvation. My Savior. My Father. My Everything. He never let's go of me, yet sometimes I overlook him for the things of this world. 

There's this song that I have recent;y fallen in love with call "You never let go".  These are the lyrics. 

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

Your perfect love is casting out fear

And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life

I won’t turn back

I know You are near

And I will fear no evil

For my God is with me

And if my God is with me

Whom then shall I fear?

Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:

Oh no, You never let go

Through the calm and through the storm

Oh no, You never let go

In every high and every low

Oh no, You never let go

Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on

A glorious light beyond all compare

And there will be an end to these troubles

But until that day comes

We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on

And there will be an end to these troubles 

But until that day comes

Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

I want to be like this song. I don't want to let go of God when things are bad. I want to turn to Him. I don't want to not thank Him when things are good because it's because of Him that things are that way. He is there in every high and every low. Nothing in this world matters. 

I want my focus to be only on God. Nothing else. I know once it's focused on Him I will be able to reach those in need and show them God's steadfast and everlasting love. His grace and mercy. He is an awesome God who loves me and the people of this world. I want to show his love to those around me. I just need to let go of this world and focus on Him.

Opportunities

Do you ever do or see something that just stays on your thoughts? It always seems to be there, even if it's in the back of your mind? 

When I went to Denmark, something hit me. Since that trip I can not seem to stop thinking about it. The things that happened there, the people, the country, the ministry, everything is always running through my mind. Denmark has been on my heart for over 2 years now. At the beginning of this year I really wanted to go back but never pursued it. Now that the summer is over, I wish I could have gone. But as I look back on   the trip I feel like I wasted alot of my time over there. To say I was young and unfocused are lame excuses for my lack of passion on that trip. I know that God sent me there to show me that I did have a passion for missions but I had a little bit to go before I should jump in. Missions has always been a part of my life. Even when I was a kid I did mission orientated things. Every summer with the youth group we went on a mission trip. So growing up I knew that missions was awesome and that I wanted it apart of my life. I feel like God has brought me a long way since Denmark two summers ago. He has stretched me and used me and challenged me. I feel ready. So I got in contact with my trip leader and asked her about a trip next summer and to my amazement she was forming a team and said she would love to have me come along. What an awesome opportunity God presented me with! After praying about it I told her that I am more than willing to go and would jump on a plane today if I could. 

See how amazing God is? He sees a passion in us, prepares us, and then sends us out. How amazing He is. I asked a few of my friends if they wanted to come since I know they love missions as well, but they are still praying about it. Normally I wouldn't even think of going on a mission trip without any friends. But I think it would be an amazing experience with or without them there. If they come it will be awesome, but if they don't I know I am supposed to go. That's what matters. 

I can't wait for the other amazing opportunities God has in store for me. I am ready to dive on in. 

& so it starts here.

God has been working with me through out this whole summer and I can sense a real change starting to occur. I feel like my attitude and my out look on life has finally started to focus fully on Him. How He wants things to go and His plan for my life as well as the life of others around me. I decided to start this blog to write down the changes in my life. This past summer I really feel that God has spoken to me and I actually listened this time. I am ready to do whatever He is asking of me. No matter what the sacrifice. I am ready for it. 

I have never been at that place in my life before and it is kind of mind boggling to say the least. I am generally the girl who will wait for a couple of people to dive into a situation first so I can see how they do and how it turns out. But not this time. I want to be the first to take that leap off the edge. I can't wait to see how that water feels. 

I am not writing in this blog for anyone but myself. Maybe someone will read it and be inspired or influenced by it, but if not that's ok. I am hoping I can look back on this blog in a year or even a couple months and see how far God has taken me. I am excited for this exciting and endless journey.